Monday, April 09, 2007

stillness

life has come to a strange and peaceful halt. i was feeling the force of evil weighing in on me during this time of lent and of personal questioning, searching, and transition.

it felt like noise.

it felt like i had been running, unknowingly... and noise was pounding in on me, constantly pulling at me, trying to break me. when i realized i was running, i felt, in my weakness, as though I couldn't continue the run while fighting this strange and vague burden of gravity. But... just when i was feeling the noise to a degree in which i've never before experienced, as it was about to bring me to my knees, a breaking point, it stopped..

my world stopped.

the world around me is spinning..

but i am still.

there is noise, but i cannot hear it, i am silent.

i am surrounded by peaceful stillness.

i am taking it all in

i don't know exactly what is happening, or why...

but i await

in tears of relief

in silent peace,

the future....

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